tbh, I still feel like I'm seeking for happiness till now
HAPPINESS IS SOMETHING THAT WE DECIDE OURSELVES
If you haven't know, my mom just passed away 5 months ago. It still feel like she was here with me even now - I can never get over it
For 5 years I rarely be home with my family as I studied in London; of course I came home every year, spent time with my family However, there are times I regret not spending most of my time at home, with mom
I only managed to stay home for about a month or so before mom passed away as it was only then I finished with my studies. Mom, no longer with me; it was such a huge blow
I had a hard time to sleep, I didn't feel like doing anything, I just wanted to mourn all my life It felt like my life is now over; what's the use of working now that I can never give mom my earning? I always wanted to give mom my 1st salary, but mom's gone before I could get a job
I woke up everyday, sighing; hoping that everything is just a nightmare. Hoping that when I wake up, mom's gonna be there and life gonna be as usual - sadly that will never happen
I still go to bed wetting my pillows most of my nights
I know that I need to move on with my life; mom will always be remembered no matter where I am I started working with hope that that could make me busy enough that I can forget my sadness even for a bit To be honest, it doesn't
I am, till now, still trying to cheer myself up; go on living and seek for happiness in whatever way I could It's not that happiness would come rolling at me, right?
I came to appreciate little happiness as it's hard to come by
I WANT HAPPINESS! I WANT TO BE HAPPY! I REALLY REALLY REALLY DO!
But anyway if you could spare a bit of your time to check my artwork..here's the link [link]